Why am I running a Spartan Super 10k with 25 obstacles?

 I've been realizing that who I am in Christ, who I've been called to be as His servant, is not who I am this moment, and I've repented "in dust and ashes."

Shall I press the magic prayer button and suddenly walk in my "full measure"? As I repented, leaning on the life of Christ to now live by, does that mean that my outward abilities will match up with who I find myself to be in Christ? It hasn't worked that way so far.

I'm about to run a Spartan race far beyond my ability. When I signed up for this 10k with 25 obstacles it was impossible but was a vision of where I think I should be at with exercise and health. I wanted to be able to run a 10k at a 10min pace - not an amazing thing but impossible not long ago. I wanted to be able to do 100 pushups, 10 pullups, and sit-ups, etc. When I started out toward this I could run a mile and that was after a long while of training up to it. Now I run a 5k in the mornings with little G just for half of a practice (his cross country practice in the evening completes it). We only run a 5k because we run out of time and I need to go to work. The 10k that I can run today may not be as fast as I'd like but it's now possible and part of my abilities.

The obstacles are still beyond my abilities. I can do some but I haven't worked all the way up to them. I can do a decent amount of pushups now, maybe 60+ in one go. But I can't do so many monkey bars and keep going. I can climb a rope but that's it for the day. I can't do 25 obstacles.

Do I run the race set before me? The race that's way beyond me? Or do I continue to put it off for another day when I'm ready for it and in better shape? Do I run and fail mostly but succeed some? Will it bring me closer to the spot of being able to run well?

If I race tomorrow I may complete 15 of the 25 obstacles, do burpees for as many of the obstacles I can, and maybe receive some time penalties on the others. It will be a failure. By God's grace, with a slightly broken body, I may finish and receive a finisher's medal.

Do I race now? Or wait for a better day?

I've trained to this point, I'll race at this point. I'll run the full measure race, though I'm not ready. Then I'll get back up when it's over and train harder for the next race. The next time if I train well I may do more obstacles and run in a better way.

Today I've asked the Lord to restore to me the full measure vision of who I am in Christ - and it's beyond what I can do today and tomorrow. Should I "race" now? Or wait for a better day to begin?

"fill up the full measure of thy ministry" 2 Tim 4:5b
"run with endurance the race that lies before us" Hebrews 12:1c

Update: It ended up being an 11k with 29 obstacles. 20 obstacles I could do, 4 of them had extra penalty runs (making this a 13k?) and 5 of them I did 30 burpees for each time (= 150 burpees). Nothing was broken, everything was sore, everything was muddy. Spiritually, I was greatly refreshed and encouraged to run this Christ-race set before me.